Life tastes sweet

Old friend, why are you so shy? It aint like you to hold back or hide from the light

A thin stick with a small red ember at the end; from which danced smoke in the most beautiful patterns. Each thin billow chasing the others tail. The smoke wasn't large and cloudy and smelled of nicotine. But rather a thin elegant white smoke that danced before your eyes and invited a beautiful scent to your senses.

Swirling, tumbling and diving.

Rupert has been gazing at the clouds, grey-white clouds that look as if they're about to burst. They create a lazy air that only wants to be filled with the brilliance of a brush stroke. Sleek, dynamic colours that create an obscure reality. A reality through Rupert's eyes. These clouds provoke moods of tea drinking, and writing odd sentences that are disjointed and awkward but clever nonetheless.

take my tongue, go have some fun.
take my heart, tear it apart.

Ice cream with strawberries is the taste of summer, an attempt to brighten the dismal day. It instead has made me a sleepy cat that would love an afternoon nap. The strawberries fit so well in the spoon with just enough iced cream to make them cool. Rupert enjoys the combination much.

Lately I have been having cravings for cigarettes and wine.

the biggest nothing-at-alls

wouldn't it be wonderful to gaze at the moon?

Rupert looked out of the bus window, and tugged on my ear. He had noticed something very peculiar. The trees looked to be washed away. The trunks and grass were murky and swampy. "The roots..." he wondered aloud, "how will they hold on?"

The trees didn't seem very sad... just still, still with their eyes closed and hoping that they wouldn't drift away in the river.

The weather has been acting funny lately, with cold air that's not very spring like. The ground really is craving warmth. You can see it cling to the very idea of it whenever it comes around. A warmth that makes the grass smile and sing. The green comes out in the healthiest ways, and then it's turned upside down.

Weather is such a funny thing.

It's funny to see the bright flowers that are trying to bloom through the cold. It's a hedge of very dead things, and sticks that are dark brown and have to be tended to. And right in the middle are the brightly colored flowers that are trying to bloom and mulitply. It's comforting to see. They're very tough fellows pushing through all of the odds of the cold.

I think that it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirrored

Warm tea would be wonderful on these cold days. Warm tea, with a paper that is half complete... and a mind full of educated thoughts that are too pursue an exam soon to be written. Instead, Rupert has been running in circles, shaking. Scared. Whispering about odd things and strange situations.

The weather is such a funny thing.

light me up a cigarette

bottoms up

Grey, grey and unfeeling. A sense of accomplishment, a sense of loss. A new chapter. New emotions, new text. New work, new world, new chapter.

A new start. Another year down, whizzing by faster then the cold.

A blink, a whisper. An eyelash. Cold toes, frozen nose.

Unshowered.

Rupert wanders along aimlessly, seeing the images around him, but unmoving. Wandering in circles, his head in the clouds. He is floating along, existing. Small raindrops begin to cluster together in clouds. The spring hasn't set in enough to warm the small flecks of rain that have been often falling. The chilled ground attempts to warm the heated feet that walk upon it. Rupert notices it's struggles.

light me up a cigarette n' put it in my mouth. you're the only one who wants me around.

Rupert has noticed that there is a squirmy thing inside his tumy that rumbles and grumbles at all the wrong moments. Yuck.

what looked to be a day full of warmth and sunshine has indeed changed to one of cold and grey.

My mind has been at a loss of words during this post, and there seem to be many ramblings. Rambling is what I do best.

I would love a french movie romance

Can I be your everything? Can we lose the world in each other?

My brain won't stop spinning.. spinning around in this dizzy circle of nothingness. A pit of nothing that extends to nowhere where noone has gone. It's tiring.

Im exhausted. Mentally, physically, socially... what have you. My motivation has dried up like the paper I wrote endless notes on. Notes that I must take to heart, consider, question, memorize and be able to spit up back in the exact order with some context behind them that makes it seem like I understand the topic.

"Lean back on a broken willow tree"

I don't understand things sometimes. School work , people, what have you. And it makes me overwhelmed when anger is pervasive and pressed onto others... I really just think a good cry is what I need right now. Im just feeling deflated.. not angry, or sad... but numb... and just.. unfeeling. It's a little unnerving.

Im worried that I am complaining too much so I apologize. My thoughts run with me sometimes and I have a hard time finding their tails and catching them again. Reeling them back in can be a task too. It's interesting to watch them dip into your ears and back again.

These thoughts are like small fairies. They speak in tongue and make you think of a whole list of things when you try to take hold of them. Sometimes the talknig is all at once and you have to consider one before another. I think sprites may be there as well.. little curious fellows with pointed ears and a coniving smile. They are disastrous and tend to pick out the worst outcomes for me and the worst choices seem to be the best in their eyes. I try to ignore them, but they're beautiful.

Have you ever been dipped in so many thoughts you feel as though you were just dragged down with the ideas? That the attempts are soggy instead of fresh. And instead of passing lovingly through the breeze like a plastic bag or leaves.. they just sit there in a heap like a sock someone dropped in a puddle. For whatever reason someone would lose a sock and not a shoe and a sock or just a shoe in a puddle is beyond me.

I miss looking out and seeing rainbows that have crashed to the ground. In eery crop circles that seep and ooze in abnormal shapes. But they're brilliant.

The rain is cold and full of winter, the sun is trying to warm up the ground and melt what's left of the snow. Small flowers are trying to push through but it's hard to fall such a distance and not get chilly. I think they need sweaters...

I really would just love a room to myself to sit and do things I like to do. This one isn't big enough.

I feel as though I live in a shoebox sometimes.